ふふ、また遅くなっちゃった。
Heehee. I know I didn't intend to stay out that long...
ふふ、また遅くなっちゃった。
Heehee. I know I didn't intend to stay out that long...
孤児院に行くと、ついつい 長居してしまうのよね。
It's so easy to lose track of time when I'm at the orphanage.
早く寮に戻らないと……
I'd better hurry back to the dorm.
……私は………… そんなのじゃない……
She's... She's got me all wrong...
優等生でも…… …………献身でもない……!
I'm not some kind of model student or 'good girl' like she thinks I am...
そんな理由で 通ってたんじゃないのに……!!
That's not why I'm always going to the orphanage!
………ふう……………
...*sigh*...
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…………はあ………………
...*sigh*...
(…………何だろう。 #5W #40W……胸がざわざわする………)
(...What's wrong with me? #5W #40WMy heart just won't stop pounding...)
(どうして私はあんなに………)
(Why am I acting like this...?)
……はあぁ……………………
...*sigh*...
『最近自分がよく分からない』。
...'I feel like I can't understand myself at all these days.'
…………私の後ろに 立つのはやめてください。
Please don't stand behind me like that.
悪趣味です。
It's creepy.
ハッハッハ。 今日は相当機嫌が悪いな。
Hahaha. Someone's in a bad mood.
(フム、顔色が悪い……)
(She's not looking too good.)
……私は、 ずっと憧れていたんです。
...I always wished I could have a 'normal' life like everyone else.
普通の生活とか、 家族とか、友達とか……
An ordinary family, ordinary friends...
………でも、 そんなにうまく行かない。
But wishing for those things just doesn't get you them, and no matter how hard I try, nothing seems to work out.
うまく、行かないんです……
I just can't seem to make any progress...
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…………なるほどなァ。
...I get'cha.
それで何となくイラついて、 物分りの悪いヤツに 怒鳴りつけてやったってワケか。
You were so frustrated, you ended up lashing out against a friend who's kinda on the dense side.
そういうことじゃありません。 先輩と一緒にしないでください。
That's not what happened at all. I'm not you.
……私はジルさんのことも 大切に思ってるんです。
I might be annoyed at her, but Jill is still very important to me.
でも……
But...
私は間違ってない……!#2S
But I'm not wrong, either!#2S
同情とか……献身とか…… そんな理由じゃなかったんです。
I'm not going there because I pity the children or because I'm a good girl...
あの場所はそんなのじゃないんです。 ……哀れみなんていらないんです!
The children there are wonderful. They don't need pity!
そうじゃなくて、そんなのじゃなくて、 私は自分が好きだと思うから、 純粋に大切だと感じていたから……
I'm going there because I enjoy being there, and because it's important to me!
だから、あの場所にいたのに……!
I don't need to be made out to be some kind of saint for going somewhere I like!
私は優等生なんかじゃない。
Because I'm not. That's not who I am!
私はただ…… ……家族で在りたかった……!!
I just... I just wanted to be family!
(やっぱり、うまくいかない……)
(Why does nothing work out how I want it to...?)
(家族も、友達も……)
(No matter how much I want friends and family, I just can't get them.)
(私の手には、届かないんだ……!)
(Are they destined to forever be out of my reach?)
ふぅ~ん。
You're spillin' all the beans tonight, huh?
……先輩は。
...What about you?
何かに一生懸命に なることって無いんですかっ!?#2S
Is there anything in the world that you take seriously?!#2S
こだわりや譲れない 一線は無いんですかっ!?#2S
Just one thing where you refuse to compromise?!#2S
おーお、恐いねェ~。
You know, you can be preeetty scary when you start shouting.
……もういいです。 …………はあ……
...Forget it. *sigh*...
先輩なんかに怒っても 無駄ですよね……
Shouting at you isn't going to solve anything.
………………で?
So?
結局、自分が何のために 怒ってるのか分からんわけだ。
You still don't know why you're mad, right?
…………先輩、やっぱり ちゃんと聞いてませんでしたね。
You're not even listening to me, are you?
私が怒ってるのは、 えっと、同情とかじゃないのに……
I just told you why! It's because, well... It's because I'm not going there out of pity.
……わたしは、 そんな理由じゃなくて……!
That's not why I'm going there at all!
本当に大切だって、 そう思ってたから…………!!
It's because it's genuinely important to me, and because...
はあ~、また堂々巡りかよォ。
*sigh* Now we're just going around in circles.
オレ、もう飽きちゃったぜ~。
Sorry, but this is boring as sin.
せ、先輩! ちゃんと聞いてください!
Wh-Where are you going? At least listen to me!
私は真面目に話してるんです。 いい加減に流さないでください!
I'm trying to have a serious discussion with you! You can't walk away in the middle of it!
まー、そこんとこだけは 自分でハッキリ させとくことだなァ。
Listen. All I'm gonna say is, get yourself a clear answer to my question.
もつれた糸と同じ…… 根元を解#2Rほど#かにゃ絡まる一方だぜ。
These things are like a knotted-up rope--if you don't untangle the heart of the problem, you'll just get more and more wrapped up in yourself.
え…………
...What does that even mean?
精々悩め~♪
That's for you to find out! ♪
先輩!!#2S
Lechter!#2S
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……もういい。
Oh, who am I even kidding?
先輩なんて、どうせ からかってるだけなんだし……
He's probably just trying to bully me.
(……そんなこと、ないですよね。)
(...No, he's not.)
(レクター先輩は、本当は {} ちゃんと考えてる人だ……)
(He seems like he never takes anything seriously, but in reality, he does.)
{0x18}{color 5}#40W結局、自分が何のために 怒ってるのか分からんわけだ。
{0x18}{color 5}#40WYou still don't know why you're mad, right?
{0x18}{color 5}#40Wもつれた糸と同じ…… 根元を解#2Rほど#かにゃ絡まる一方だぜ。
{0x18}{color 5}#40WThese things are like a knotted-up rope--if you don't untangle the heart of the problem, you'll just get more and more wrapped up in yourself.
………私が怒ってるのは……
...He's right...
どうしてなんだろう……
Why am I so angry about this...?
……私の心がこんなにも 乱れ、波立っているのは……
What's got me so worked up?
どうして…………?
...Why?
{0x18}{color 12}#40W…………そうなんだ。
{0x18}{color 12}#40WDeep down, I knew all along what I was doing.
{0x18}{color 12}#40W私はずっと、気付かないフリをしていた。
{0x18}{color 12}#40WAll that time, I'd been pretending not to notice the truth, but I had known since the very beginning.
{0x18}{color 12}#40W必死に何かにしがみついて、 これは正しいのだと呪文のように繰り返した。
{0x18}{color 12}#40WAnd to avoid facing that fact, I kept desperately clinging on to everything I could, telling myself I was right over and over again... Trying to convince myself it was true.
{0x18}{color 12}#40Wきっと、失うのが恐かったのだろう。
{0x18}{color 12}#40WMaybe it was because I was afraid that if I accepted it, I was going to lose everything.
{0x18}{color 12}#40Wだからこそ、私の心は―――……
{0x18}{color 12}#40WThat was why my heart was so restless.
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今は会いたくない……
I don't want to talk to her right now.
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今は誰にも会いたくない……
I don't want to talk to anyone right now.